I'm looking at you...with the world in the rearview

I have many many many things to say that I think people need to understand..

1. No, I have not dumped Terry. No matter what you hear, it most likely isn't true. Unless it is coming from me or one of my close friends. None of those stupid rumors.
2. Yes I have been in a bad mood. But I'll bet almost anything that most of you haven't had to go through this. I don't mean to be selfish but for the love of God I can't do anything!!! I think I deserve a little bit of slack here. I have nobody to talk to, because my friends always so "oh yeah I understand amy" but no. no you don't you don't have a family who assumes that every time you yawn you are sighing because you are a total bitch (true story)You most likely are able to walk without not only being in a wheelchair but having someone have to push you around everywhere. I have lost all of my independance. You most likely don't have parents and friends and family who hate your best friend because he was trying to help me. I don't know what you all have heard but I have heard horrible things about him, and they aren't true. So if anyone has gone through all of this (ha) can you please talk to me because I can't take it anymore. I have spent almost everynight crying myself to sleep because I'm angry and sad and in pain and tired and fed up with all of this.
3. No I do not hate my family. For some reason my sister has chosen to use her F-ing livejournal to tell her little world about how I'm a "complete bitch" and I'm "making my family miserable" Now that is sisterly love ain't it. I'm sorry I have been under a lot of fucking stress and she, oh she is the worst, she makes it 20 times worse just by doing things and not even being like "hey, maybe I should try to understand her, maybe she really is going through a lot" DUH!
4. Yes, I'm fine. Well not yet. but I will be, in about a year or more I'll be running and jumping like there is no tomorrow.
5. Kitty has become my new best friend
6. After Richard... I love you Ricky ( 54 day kid )
7. I'm a teapot and if you have a problem, let me dance for you. ( It worked with Mr. Karon )

hahaha i kind of sort of forgot about this thing.....

Dear sister,

You disgust me. I hope you learn how to make your own opinion... soon...


-your sister
Amy

I hate the way you talk to me,
And the way you cut your hair.
I hate the way you drive my car,
I hate it when you stare.
I hate your big dumb combat boots
And the way you read my mind.
I hate you so much it makes me sick,
It even makes me rhyme.
I hate the way you're always right,
I hate it when you lie.
I hate it when you make me laugh,
Even worse when you make me cry
I hate it when you're not around,
And the fact that you didn't call
But mostly I hate the way I don't hate you,
Not even close...
Not even a little bit...
Not even at all


I counted more then ten things here...

why is this so hard

Your life's not perfect
And that's not fair.
A loving glance
Turned to a blank stare.
I'm so sorry you don't know what to do.
Just always know
Whether you think so or not,
You'll always have me to love you.
-brandy

^that boy is awesome

The two loves of my life



and of course

I feel good.

Ok, this is to Terry and Brandon...
I don't know what I would do without you guys. I love you both so much and I'm so thankful for having you two to help me. There's Brandom who let's me call him at 4 in the morning if I need to talk and draws pictures of how "life sucks"... haha... God I love my Brandy.
Then there is Terry, since he is the most amazing person in the world I'm also very lucky. He is so kind and helpful and comforting. He lets me cry without getting annoyed, which I do a lot. The sad part is, he doesn't think he can help me, just because he can't make my problems themselves always go away he can make me feel so much better about them. Terry, thank you for everything I love you so much. If there is any way I can do something for either of you please let me know, you two have done so much for me I want to make it up to you.

-Amy

...pretty eyed
pirate smile
you'll marry a music man

Won't you hold me now?

I found my shitty pansy-boy soft emo cd!
Fuck yes!
...This really shouldn't make me this happy...
but it does...
fuck.......

This has been a pretty rocking weekend my friends.

♥Friday... went to Mark's house that was fun. Football game, not as bad as some other's I've gone to.

♥Saturday... Leonor's wedding, Terry looked veryhandsome. He is a very pretty boy and he is mine, it is amazing. The wedding was very nice, the reception was a lot of fun. Then after that it was really really fun too.

♥Sunday... Church, it was actually fun. Rick had me Jesus dance. Tim is abusive at bells, he punched me in the shoulder, was grabbing my arm and he bit me. He bit me. Who bites people besides little 4 year old girls? Well, then I went home and did homework and Terry called and we stalked people for his psychology thing. Then we had fun. I love him very much.

♥Now I'm sleepy but I feel very happy and very loved and very special and very good in general, you can't really describe this feeling, it's too much rolled into one super-emotion type thing. But it is very nice.

no joke, I don't know who he is, but he is in my room which has the "door" to the attic. I need to get dressed!! sweet jesus I don't know what to do!

well, today....
went to marks house with Terry which was very exciting
football game...shoot me now... oh lord somebody just shoot me now

I love my daddy, I really take him for granted a lot.

I hate people.

It really sucks when a three day weekend is still way too short.





I hate school.... grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.....

• NEW GLASSES
• NEW HAIRCUT

• NEW AMY???




Bought Scenes from a memory at Best Buy. I'm very content with my life.

I'm so glad it's the weekend! School has been kind of pain in the ass. Well only a few more months of school then it's summer again. It isn't too bad I guess, it's nice to actually do something for a change vs. sitting around my house all day, plus the weekends are pretty fun. Yesterday I went to Terry's house and his band was there. They are actually really good, I'm proud of them. Then his band left and we hung out at his house for a tiny bit then we went to Pizza Factory to see Terry's friend, which was fun. Then we went back to my house and just relaxed, one of us did more then the other, heh heh heh, but it was very nice. I love him very very very very VERY much X 938,019,998,382,109. Hopefully the rest of the weekend will be really fun too.
-Peace, AmyLeigh-

I love Terry. I love Terry's family. They really wear a girl out though, but they are awesome.